I Miss My Superman

It is such a shame that I am longing for someone so far away that the only way i could hold him is when one of us flies halfway around the world. Also, it is insane for me to start dropping my I.Q. and let my heart decide to fall for someone virtually. Well, I can't blame my heart because it knows for sure that the guys its falling for is the almost-perfect description of my prince charming.

Although, communication ended due to some cyber set backs, the effect on me lasted to the point that I became determined and since I have no choice, patience became a virtue, my virtue.

Indeed, as the song "Waiting for Superman" by Daughtry goes, "If life was a movie then, it wouldn't end like this, left without a kiss."

It was so real yet so unreal. Could you virtually make a connection and then let real feelings manifest? This is a question that seem so irrational but is possible and is happening,

I couldn't and I wouldn't prefer to forget the short time we spoke on video call. Crazy as I may seem, the truth is, I keep remembering him, I keep thinking of him and I don't seem to want to forget.

I know where to find you but I won't because I can't. My guts are pushed back and that elegant arrogance kicks in. This is mind boggling, this is absurd, this is insanity but at the same time, this is the cause of a strong idealism, a driving force that makes quitting impossible.

Funny, when I see him, I always though, I'll be walking up to him and say, "I could have fallen in love with you. Maybe I did and maybe I still do" and before he can respond, I'll be walking away so I wouldn't hear what he has to say about it.

It has been more than a month that I haven't seen or talked to you but still, you play through my mind like a sweet sounding melody, too adherent to forget and too beautiful to replace.

I wish I'm in North California so I we can just see each other all the time

See you when I'll see you, Corporal.

If life was a movie then, it wouldn't end like this, left without a kiss.